traaagedyy

sooo, its been pretty great latelyy.. hangin with my friends, but...time to rant

BOYS ARE STUPID

seriously they can rot in hell.

I wish they could realize how much they can really hurt someone :/

Interesttinggg.

Today was....eh....

So last night that guy I kindaa like actually called me and we hung out. He took me for a ride in his jeep (<3) and then he bought me a sweet tea cus they are sooo deliciousss. But it was funn(: I still don't know if he likes me back or not though..cus last night he was soo amazing, and then today..nothing... BOOO BOYS. they suck. i should just go lesbo, except not cus i love boys too much. but i still hate em.

ANYWAYS... todayy i woke up late and turned in two more apps and then went to the dr. since no one knows whats wrong with me, im lucky and get an ultra sound AND an endoscopy or whatever its called where they stick atube with a camera down my throat and into my tummy...gross... and then subway (ironic cus im a woman and i make good sammiches) called me and since i was SUPPOSED to babysit tomorrow, i had to postpone my interview. and then 10 minutes later i got a call saying they dont need me to babysit anymore. OH JOY. just my luck. like seriously i have the luck of a piece of shit. thennn, we had cheer uniform fittings and i had an attack and was in soo much pain, not pleasent. Luckily it soon went away and i got to spend the rest of the night with my friend Catie(: We watched the movie Shrooms (very wierd, not really worth your time) and played on the wii, so at least it ended nicely.. Now im off to play on my webkinz and try to cheer up.... ughhh :/

                                             ^me and Catie while in Colorado (:

with love and turtles,

xoxo Jackie

One of Those Days...

So today hasn't really been the best. My phone broke and its hot as HAYL outside and fricken humid as fuckkk. But whateverrr... SO i went to my friends house to practice tap dancing. She dragged me into this show called Celebrate America. It's like a musical dancy type show for the 4th of July. SOOO IF YOUR READING THIS MAGGIE YOU OWE ME (: <3  heheheehehe.... but yeahhh.. its not the funnest thing in the world. And me having noo tap experiance whatsoever its a bit of a strugg..

anyways... i was hoping the day would turn around for the better, this guy i've been liking for a little bit called me last night wanting to meet up, but it was like realllyy late sooo i said why not tomorrow night and we skyped for a while... so now he's doin his thing that he usually does. That thing is acting all 'i like you' one minute and very cold and ignoring the next. I don't really know what to think about it...I can't tell if he likes me back or what, but it's getting really annoyingg :/

I filled out another app though!! This time to Party City (woooo). But seriously i doubt app #9 will give me luck. No one is hiring. soo depressingg!!!!!

grrrrr

wellp, its about time for me to pounce and try to find plans on this boring Monday night.

With love and turtles,

xoxo Jackie

Happy Father's Day!

So I'd like to take time to say happy fathers day to my daddy. Although he isn't an internet junkie and will probably never see this :( he is amazing in every way!  He's always there for me, like most dads, and I'm of course daddy's little girl. SO raise your glass to your dad, and ALL the daddies out there!...especially those who have passed, aren't with us, or are fighting for our country overseees.  <3

Anyways, since I'm sick (most likely strep) BOOOOOOO, here's fifteen things you never knew, and probably don't really even care about. Just to get to know me a little more at the start of this blogg...

1. I'm obsesssssed with turtles. Hence "Turtle Doves" (yeah i know, those are birds, btu c'mon its definetely cathier! plus turtle doves are symbols of love)  (:
2. I love to sing. Ever since I was a little girl I have been writing songs and harmonizing along with tapes.
3. I play multiple instruments. I may not be Mozart or genious on any one in particular, but music is my way of communication, I just can't NOT learn moree <3
4. I'm very good at helping people with their problems. really, if anyone out there reading this needs help with something, just ask. I'd be glad to share advice (:
5. I'm always sick...really its annoying. With lady problems that take me to the hospital, getting an emergencey cholecystectomy (gall bladder removal), having 11 different doctors, and now sick again (seeing another new doc. on Tues.) plus this whoel strep on the side, all in one year...its fabulous -.-
6. I'm in love with my inner child. I even have a Webkinz account (that i currently use i might add! thanks Mrs. Schillah for givin me that moose on surgery day<3) and whenever I get the chance, I'll gladly get out the old VHS tapes and have movie marathons with my favorite classics (hooray for Scooby Doo and Alladin).
7. I love kids. Being 16 I'm obviously waiting for marriage and kids and such, so I'll babysit instead. But being a kid myself, I seem to reachout more to them, which can really help me out later in life when I plan to study in the field of child life services and help kiddies in the hospital feel more comfortable and safe. (:
8. Double Bubble. nuff said (: I chew as much as I can get, no joke.
9. I'm one of those kinds of people who says it as it is. Really guys, enough is enough with all the bullshit. Too many times have I been played and cheated because of dishonesty. So when I talk, it's all me, all real. I might not be able to make other people join with it, but it'll make a difference with at least a few people who get to know me and realize it's actually so much cooler to be the real you.
10. I like to rant. I complain (like any normal teenage girl) and I'm not afraid to create that annoying list of things that bug me, it kinda goes along with the whole says it as it is personality, but oh well, its a new number (:
11. Justin Bieber.....Yes, I do love him. But even more than him is Eminem(: he is my husband along with Ashton Kutcher, Patrick Dempsy...........ohkay I love boys. It's fun.
12. I love to fish, and hunt, and boat, and tube, and water ski. All of that. I'm an outdoors girl(:
13. I'm a cheerleader. But seriously, if one more person cringes at that I will piss on their face. Everyone seems to stereotype us cheerleaders. Not all of us are bitchy whores like they are in all the movies. I might be blonde and perky and I may always smile, but I'm definetely one of "those girls." I'd annoy myself too much..
14. I love math. Algebra<3 <3 <3  I love how I can have this huge mess of number and letters and symbols and I can jus tpick up my pencil and solve it. If only my life could be like a math equation.........
15. LAST ONE!!!!  I have many fears. Don't let me fool you into thinking I'm this fearless son of a bitch who takes life as it is with one breath. It may seem that way sometimes, but when I take life as it is, it comes with emotion and fear. I'm claustrophobic, arachniphobic, acrophobic, I hate bugs, I'm terrified of the dark (i sleep with a nightlight), I'm really actually afraid of what people will think of me. Even though I embarress myself a lot and I do things no matter what, sometime those butterlfies arrive when I'm onstage or talking to a crowd. Most of all though, I'm terrified of being alone. It scares me. I've never had luck with guys. I've had three most recent guys cheat on me (one I dated 9 months and he cheated on me 3 times, and the day after we broke up he was with that last girl he decided was better than me (Soo NOT true). I'm insecure sometimes. And i realize this is really personal and I probably shouldn't be too in detail, but c'mon, that shit is fake and that's not how this blog is gonna be.

Well, there we go....

 

With love and turtles,

xoxo Jackie

p.s.   NEW TO YOUTUBE!!! if I ever decide to upload videos check em out  *sugarcanejax*

SUPER FUN

Hey guys!(: Its me, Jackie. I'm new to blogging and its a very fun thing cus i think im interesting...... no worries, this whole first timey junk will get done with fast. oh, and dont plan on fantabulous grammer and spelling. YOU GUYYYYS! should follow and read and comment.
find me on twitter.... jackiehinderks7.....if you want to contact me, i swear im nice(: 

with love and turtles,

xoxo Jackie